blog entry during the wee hours of night

an exerpt from my multiply site.

No matter how hard I try to make a new blog entry, I just can't find the right words that would fit how I feel right now. It's very different. It's very difficult. It's not because I lost touch. It's because my mind is set only for work work work. I guess I don't have the same urge as before. There are no grades of 1.00, 1.25, 1.5, 1.75 in the reality. There is no grading procedure when writing a blog entry. But to some, it matters. I must say it is a subjective way of reacting to what has been written.
The reason before why I created my own site is to impress people of how I express myself through catered blog entries. However, as months passed and I am getting busier in school, I was not able to update my multiply. That... Until now...
I find making blogs a nice way for de-stressing not to mention I can share it with particular persons or groups. It also is a nice place (referring to the internet social activity network) of having the emotionally stressed calm themselves or speaking what they have in mind. I also make use of this as a means of connecting with friends even with busy schedules.
Let me get back to the first sentence I used " no matter how I try to make a new blog entry, I just can't find the right words that would fit how I feel right now." I still can't. "Kahit Filipino gamitin ko, wala pa din ako maisip." I don't think I'm already drained. I can still find simple reasons, I can still think of explanations. But what I don't have is the logic of getting those reasons, those explanations combined to compose an entry that would be interpreted as my own feelings and thoughts.
Many things happen in the office during my work schedule. But when I got home, "panis na yung balita, napagusapan na, bukas iba naman." And I will not be gaining from those hearsay, news and sidestuff that happened. What I have right now is just thinking within the box. The box which represents the company's policies, terms and conditions, etc. The box which sustains the company that would end up giving me the bread and butter. It is with this kind of realization that makes me struggle for perfections in my work and for a well deserved compensation (that would make me feel contented even for a bit).
For a bit would mean that I would be contented even if many problems arise. I always ask myself "WHY?" ........ I would have to restrain myself. I would have to end this but there are a lot of things I want to write down. I just don't know how to say and organize my thoughts. haha! "hirap eh, puro work nalang kasi!"

P.S.
Additional, I want to watch the finals for the UAAP. Kaso wala ng ticket. huhu =(